Sunday, July 5, 2009

July 4th is so depressing for me

July 4th will forever be the holiday that heralded Bethanie's murder. My son was supposed to get Bethanie for visitation on July 4th, 1999. We had planned a large family picnic at my home, which is in a different county than the one Bethanie lived in. When my son went to pick the girls up, Megan refused to let him have them, telling him that she didn't want him taking the girls out of the county. She refused to even let him see them at the door. This was not unusual behavior for Megan, so we all just got angry and went on with the day, once again deprived of spending time with the girls. We had no idea what Megan was really hiding. Later, we found out that what she was hiding was an emaciated, starving and bruised little girl. She had already begun the process of killing her. Every 4th of July I sit and wonder why I didn't go there myself and call the police. Given that visitation is a civil matter, they wouldn't have made her hand the girls over, but maybe they would have seen something that would have saved her life. There are a hundred different things I see in hindsight that might have saved her life, if only I had done even one of them.

12 comments:

  1. ohhhhhh iam very sorry for that really
    but i believe thats happen by god welling dont blame ur self for that

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  3. That was really bad for you and I am verry sorry about that.

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  4. It was horrible, i am so sorry for that.

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  5. those are the sad news I don't want to hear, but unfortunately it happens all the time over the globe.we human are so dangerous!

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  6. So sad to hear of your loss...very sorry for that.

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  7. Thank you to all of you for your comments and kind words. Sometimes we all need some kindness.

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  8. i m very sorry 4 ur loss........

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  9. it is very sad... very sorry about this....

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  10. That is so heartbreaking. You can't blame yourself for this. There's no way you could have known.

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  11. Just look at her cute picture, its very hard to image that such an angel had undergone such a horrible situation.

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Thank you!